MORBUS SACER (2022)

Morbus Sacer is a work for orchestra based on the medical examinations and the experiences produced by the epileptic crises that I have suffered since I was 8 years old. The score includes graphic material taken from my neuronal activity and extracted from various electroencephalograms carried out over more than 20 years. In the same way, some motifs and sound effects present in this music have been derived from the sounds that can be heard during an MRI. On the other hand, the character and spirit of the piece are freely based on my own experiences and my vague memories during and after the crises. Through a dynamic and vertiginous orchestration, and textures with aleatoric components, this work intends to represent the imbalance in the electrical activity of my brain and the implications that this has on a physical, emotional, and social level. The experimentation process of this work begins with the experimentation with my own body. The medical examinations, the induced crises, my brain's reaction to different stimuli, and the subsequent translation of that information into sound codes are all situations that offer unpredictable results. Morbus Sacer is an autobiographical work that reflects on the links between art and life to turn an individual experience into a collective one and fight against the social stigmas that exist around epilepsy.